My life has been crazy. Which is a word that has significance, now.
I want to start strike-throughs. I want to start doing that. I don't want to use the "delete" key anymore. I think that would make for a cool blog.
Because you'll be able to understand my thought process more, as the writer. And I believe that's what a writer's job should be -- to communicate their thought process.
Where was I? Oh yeah. Life has been crazy.
I feel crazy sometimes.
I don't think I'm crazy.
The way I see it, every human being is worthy of understanding. I didn't start to write "forgiveness," even though that's what I wanted to write. Because I think even that implies a "wrongness" that I'm not ^totally^ comfortable with.
When I use those carrots, that will mean that I'm adding something into a sentence, after originally writing the sentence without it.
So maybe I'll write "I believe I can play in the NBA," but then I'll decide to change it to "I genuinely believe I can play in the NBA."
So that sentence will look like "I ^genuinely^ believe I can play in the NBA."
It's funny that even at 29, I feel
1. Don't use strike-through. No teacher ever gave you permission to use it. Who cares if you find a genuine use for it. Who cares if it helps you communicate. DON'T CHALLENGE THE NORM.
That's another thing -- sometimes, I feel crazy just for being willing to hop from one topic to another. I'll completely drop a topic I was just fascinated with, and then immediately switch to something else. And I feel like that's supposed to make me "crazy." Simply that once I want to move onto something new, I actually do it. That's enough to make me "crazy." Or at least, that's the way I feel like society is looking at me. It's certainly possible that I'm simply misreading a lot of the messaged I'm getting from big, hard-to-define voices like "culture" and "society."
But I just wanted to be
I think it would be really cool to play professional basketball. I don't know if I'll feel that way in five years. I don't know if I'll feel that way in five minutes. But I love the sport of basketball, and I love learning about the game right now.
That was one thing I got from working at BrainStore: I realized I'm allowed to have my own dreams. I don't know what it was about that company, but it definitely helped wake me up in a lot of ways.
I'm easing my way back into stand-up. And I'm easing my way into taking basketball more seriously. I'd like to start a business that sells conversations, too.
I have lots of dreams. Maybe that makes me crazy. But I want to stop worrying about that. And I want to focus on having fun. I want to make sure I'm enjoying my life. I think if I follow that North Star, I'll end up with a pretty good story on my hands.
Bryson (aka ViralMan, aka BluntMan, aka MotherMan)