But also, it's not. _____ _____ I want to become the comic who is professional.
The comic who meets deadlines.
The comic who is great to work with.
But right now, I spend so much time in my head,
I take 6 months to finish a process that should take a week.
_____ _____ I still have faith in myself.
I still have faith that I am on the path toward professional and artistic autonomy.
I still think I am making the right decisions, and that the bumpy road will end up being the better journey.
But it's tough, to let down friends.
And it's not fair to them.
_____ _____ It's hot, in my apartment today.
An apartment that I want to call my "home"
But it's tough, in New York City.
It's tougher, in Brooklyn.
And right now, it feels like it's the toughest, in Bed-Stuy.
When I moved into this building 4 years ago, apartments were $1650 a month.
The new one's being rented out are going for $2500.
That's a more than 50% rent jump, in four years.
There's very little regulation right now, in terms of rent-control.
So many new people are moving into the city, no one seems to feel justified in becoming politically active, here in the city.
Most of the new residents of these 5 boroughs seem so consumed with surviving in "big, bad, scary New York" (which it hasn't been since about 1991)
and consumed with posting on Instagram that they're "making it"
that no one actually does anything
to make New York a better place. _____ _____ I am one of the people I am describing.
_____ _____ Of course I want to be a well-known comedian. That would make me very happy, because it's been a dream of mine since I was a kid.
It would also be cool if I went to a community meeting once a month, or something like that. And maybe instead of telling jokes, I could tell my story.
And maybe Bed-Stuy would become a little better place.
Not that it needs me to make it better. But now that I've barged in and made it worse, it would be cool if I at least tried to balance out some of the cultural damage I'm doing, by connecting with my neighbors, and providing some value to the neighborhood.
_____ _____ _____ So, here's my plan:
I'm going to ask to start an open-mic, at Inkwell Comedy Club, on Bedford Avenue.
I'm a comic, right?
Well, if I'm living in this neighborhood, why don't I offer my skills to my neighborhood.
That feels fair...right?
I'll stop by tonight, and talk to someone there.
And I'll report back tomorrow.
And post by 9:30 am. _____ _____ _____ I'm scared to release "Fuck the Industry"
I'm also excited to.
That's one thing I will miss, from not being on social media. I have a gut feeling that guy is trying his best.
More than a gut feeling. He and I came up with the same bit, half-a-decade ago. I had a bunch of friends come up to me at different points, over the course of a 2-year stretch, and gingerly let me know that he might have stolen a bit of mine.
The funny thing is: he didn't. I never put the joke online, and we never met in person. At the time, I don't think we'd ever been in the same city at the same time.
It was just this crazy case of "parallel development," where we both saw the same flaw in this world, and we both had the same reaction to it:
point out the flaw, via a joke.
I saw Joe's Twitter page a few weeks ago. His "bio" read something like
"I GOT A MILLION FOLLOWERS FOR 400 DOLLARS, NONE OF THIS MATTERS, THE ICE CAPS ARE MELTING"
And it made me smile. Because even if someone wanted to be negative, and say,
"he's probably just doing that for attention,"
that negativity reminds me a lot of the perfect Bill Hicks bit, about the "righteous indignation dollar"
It's like, "okay...what is he supposed to do?"
The ice caps really are melting (at least, I believe they are)
Twitter follower-counts really are meaningless. (at least, I believe they are)
So, what is he supposed to do? Go along with it all? Act like he doesn't see the long-term flaws in our culture?
_____ _____ For a long time, I think comedians have had a flawed understanding of our role, in society.
Yes, we're comedians. But we are also comedy fans. And the more we support the comedians we see doing the coolest things,
the more those comedians are supported, both inside of -- and outside of -- our "industry."